You Judging Me? đ
I’ve always caught wind of bits and pieces on people’s perception of me; who I was, who I am and who I should be. The funny thing is that most people know of me rather than know me in actuality. I must say that they’re, for the most part accurate or completely off target. I never truly feel the need to explain myself, my thoughts or actions to anyone but I’ll make an exception just this once. Only because I think it’s so sad that people judge from bits and pieces rather than come straight out and ask me, the primary source,about me.
First and foremost, I am a private person, always have always will be. So just because I’m outspoken about most things it doesn’t mean I share every aspect of myself with just anyone. I am friendly, I love meeting new people, genuinely meeting them to get to know them and pick their brains to know where they are coming from and their goals in life. But I’m still very guarded and a bit shy when it comes to trusting someone and letting them into my life as a friend. Thus I have less than a handful of close friends and almost everyone else is just a friendly acquaintance, most of whom I respect and admire but for some reason or another am still not close enough to be more personal with.
Second, a social network is just a social network, I treat it as such. I do occasionally remove people from my friends list, but it’s nothing personal. I have OCD when it comes to deleting fb “friends”/ following people/ phone numbers; if its not being used, why have it in the first place?!
Lastly, because this is the main topic. My personal business with My significant other, regardless of their sex is My business. My present does not in any shape or form discredit my past preference choice nor does my past discredit my present preference choice. I, who swore up and down that I would never “switch” teams, did. It wasn’t even a “switching” of teams but an expansion. It was a personal learning experience and one that I feel taught me immensely about not only myself but how I was affected by the society we live in. It forces us to feel the need to fit in whatever community we categorically “fall into.” This one in particular is ridiculed by the heteros as an act of rebellion and completely dismissed and disregarded as “fake” and “problematic” by Lesbians. Until in their own lives they experience the revelation that Love is Love. It truly does not discriminate in the forms that it comes in (in a legal, adult woman/man [just to had to throw it in there for clarification]); sometimes it’s a man, a woman or both, but its love nonetheless. And to those that were curious enough to question my stance but not enough to ask me themselves: I love women and men equally now, but I’m in love with one man and I’m blissfully happy. And honestly, I’m pretty much open to direct and honest questions rather than hearsay, who knows we might actually end up friends!
Shađ
